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(Wednesday, March 29, 2006-)
+3/29/2006 03:40:00 PM]*

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So im sitting down here in front of my new laptop. Im lucky coz my parents decided to get it for me first. But now ive to work extra hard to pay them both in cash and household chores.

Im having a rather annoying case of flu right now. My bro's been painting the house and the smell sure isnt helping me one bit.

The weather is slightly chilly, expected since it has been raining for a few hours. The sky is still pretty dark. It's one cloudy overcast sky.

I watched Opera just now. I just cant help but marvel at the way she conducts every talkshow. She's so professional and she always asks the right questions. Questions she knows that audiences want answered. Im sure she's fucking rich, but at least she contributes to society. I don't mean contribute as in just donating to charity. She actually invites people and addresses problems like people suffering from natural disasters, abuse, disorders and many other things that we read about but have no power over.

I wanna dance. Haven clubbed in a really long time.

Hold my hand yeah. And i'll show u how mighty crazy this world can be.

you got me hiding under my bed
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(Friday, March 17, 2006-)
+3/17/2006 02:16:00 AM]*

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Everytime i think im going to make blogging a daily affair im wrong. I've stopped so many times, taken long vacations in between blog entries and then i've reached a point where i cant talk about today coz i didn't blog about yesterday.

My dramatic life has gone past the point of being over exaggerated so no one will believe what i said even if i wrote it as a fiction. In the past few months however, i know that there are many people i can rely on and will give my support to when they need help. They've been my only saving grace from the hectic mass comm life and i truly thank them.

Confusion is the top of my problem although i tell myself to quit it. You see, confusion does not leave u. It deliberates and suffocates you; then it lossens its grip. But all these while you think it's gone. It's not. It's noose still hangs around your neck.

i wish insanity came before confusion. it's so much easier to deal with insanity then to deal with confusion. coz when u're insane, you're caught up in a world that revolves around you and the issue that keeps u insane. When you're confused you're everywhere but no where in particular.

purple chipped nails
buckets and red pails
these colours aren't real
pretty pink hearts
golden brown tarts
they're nothing but art

everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all

imma confess
i might repress
holding on to pieces
i thought i'd let go

imma confess
my life's a mess
seeing all these people
i thought i'd known

everything's so ugly
everything's so ugly
even pretty flowers
and poster girls
they're just nothing
just nothing at all

you got me hiding under my bed
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